.. also, thoroughly in one of those moods where I'm just being picky and pissy at everyone, over everything.
I'm starting to realise my pissiness is mostly.. rational? I'm so used to folks reminding me that you have to stay chill, don't let people get to you, visible distress or anger is just feeding into their urge for a reaction, and the best way to handle someone behaving inappropriately is just.. go 100% business professional. This is not a conversation, this is an explanation of where you were wrong, why you were wrong, and now we can discuss if 1) you're going to fix it, or 2) if we're formally dissolving this shit.
.. this is for things that are deeply inappropriate, obviously, not tiffs. Tiffs are just contemplating if you even care enough to find out the reasoning behind why they did the thing they did, and if you care enough to drop them over it. Which: when you weigh it out as cost vs. effect, it's generally easy to decide. Not actually being friends with people, vs. being acquaintances, makes it easier, too, because.. then it's basically never worth it, short of something completely awful, i.e. slurs being used.
But it's alright to be annoyed over things, even if you're not going to do anything with that knowledge. I've gotten a lot steadier lately since I've started going, "okay, you're allowed to feel this, you're allowed to express this, but you aren't allowed to make it other people's problem". It's so much easier to get over thoughts, when you have it written down on paper, you can come back when you're impartial and re-read it, and then decide if it's worth that initial emotional reaction.
I actually don't have a reason to be annoyed today, though, apart from "everyone kept waking me up from 6AM on, continuously, and I probably didn't actually even get the 7:40 of sleep my tracker claims". x) I'm just aggrieved in general by the existence of other people. I'll get over it by evening.
... in terms of me being completely overboard, though, I spent a good forty minutes yesterday trying to convince my sister that we should give the renters in the other house 24HRs notice, and then fucking kick them out. Let them sleep in their car during the blizzard for a few days, and see if frostbite makes them adequate human beings.
I don't like my brother. Like, flat-out, he's a sheep who mirrors every single awful opinion he ever hears, he used to fucking hit me, and I've spent too many years actually paying his bills to ever find him tolerable. Also: yells at my mother, which is fucking absurd, given that he's the only person in this entire family that she actually likes, and deliberately biases everything in favour towards.
BUT they posted some racist meme on Facebook, and referenced him in regards to it. I don't like my brother, but honest to fucking god, we're renting this house to them as a favour to him, and if they've proven themselves disgusting people, then they can get out of the house. I'm not sure if they actually have cars to sleep in, but that is not my problem, should've thought it through, jackasses.
My sister's POV is that we have to let my brother handle it himself, though, because he's thirty. I get her point, honestly, I just also find it.. irritating? IDK, man, people want to use racial slurs period, in any fucking context, but especially against my family, and it's like.. if you're going to bite the hand that's feeding you and call it a nigger, when my parents decided to help out for no reason except basic kindness because they had nowhere else to go, you 1) deserve to get slapped, and 2) deserve to STARVE ON THE STREETS, BECAUSE OUR HOMELESS SHELTERS SUCK, and I don't even know if they've got a working car between the two of them.
I don't really care, either. Not my problem! Think of the consequences of your actions before you fucking do it, assholes.
(If I informed my parents as to this, then my brother's roommates would not even get 24hour notice, they'd probably just.. have the police escorting them out with an eviction notice. I don't think Ohio has renter protections. And that's why I'm not, because my sister has laid down the law, she's the one in charge of the renters, and she does have a point about letting my brother fight his own battles.)
(I can go tromping in, play the bad guy and burn down every single fucking bridge. I've already made it 110% clear to everyone in that house, much to their alarm, that IDGAF about them, either they pay the rent on time or else they are out. Because they're pieces of shit, I knew they were pieces of shit when I met them, they have never proven that they have the slightest shred of adequacy in their fucking bones, I spoke out against even renting the house to them, so fuck no, it worked out perfectly well to emphasize every shred of leniency given has been through my sister's grace and against my will, which is why they have her added on FB. And why she spotted this.)
(They're such fucking dumbasses.)
(But my sister has a point about my brother. He has legitimately never done a single goddamn thing by himself in his entire life, so this is, like, good cut-and-clear practice? There is only one answer here, and that's informing his roommates that their behaviour is unacceptable, they need to apologise - and when they do, then kicking them the fuck out.)
(But he's not going to. He's going to shove this under the rug, because he's fine with being treated this way, and he's already spent the past two years echoing back plenty of racist shit, like people don't look at him and think he's a fucking terrorist. My brother is the special kind of ignorant where he's brown, gets mistaken by people from the Middle East as being Arabic all the time, and still thinks he's white. So he's not going to do anything in response to this at all, and I'm so fucking annoyed over this.)